sutures.

"I would but I can't"

"Oh really? why not?"

"I'm thinking that I would much rather not risk you putting something in my drink"

"huh?"

"nothing"

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I'm having problems with a few people today.

Nothing really serious.

but something that definitely needs to be taken care of soon.

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If I had the choice to choose if my life could flash before my eyes right before I died or not, I would say no.

I don't want to see my whole life.

I just want to see the important parts, the parts where I was 100% genuinely happy. Where I didn't feel judged, or criticized. I want to see every moment that I spent feeling blessed to be alive. Every moment I spent, actually living.

The rest can just be forgotten.

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I feel like I've accomplished so much in my life. But in comparison I've actually accomplished so little. I'm supposed to be an adult, and be able to make adult decisions.

but I've had no experience doing that.

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"No, you're not, you're just...indecisive..."

"Then what was the past few days?"

"That was me trying to figure out how to tell you that this, you and I, as anything. Isn't what I want or need in my life right now."

"So when?"

"Never."

"So what am I supposed to do?"

"Find yourself your Bubby, because I'm not her."